9 Years


9 years ago
That’s when it all started
Oblivious to the changes

Only 9 years later
I’ve come to an acceptance
I can’t regret
Nor can I ignore Continue reading 9 Years


Raya // Eid al-Fitr 2018

On 15th June 2018, it was officially Eid al-Fitr (Raya Aidilfitri) and here’s to a whole month of Eid al-Fitr celebrations! A few days before, I was still working. So, my family ended up heading back to our hometown first and I would only go back on the 14th. I took the night flight and thank goodness I bought the ticket early, otherwise there would be no flights left. It’s been awhile since I last went on a flight alone, so the time was well spent. It was very calming for some reason…even though, the airport was packed like sardines. Continue reading Raya // Eid al-Fitr 2018



In a flash, we are almost done with the first week of June and next week will be Eid al-Fitr (Raya Aidilfitri). Soon, Ramadhan will bid us goodbye and the holy month will end – our fasting days will be over. Even though, we can still fast any other day, but the feeling won’t be the same. I don’t know how our Eid al-Fitr will be this year, but I know it won’t be as festive as it used to be. People grow up, people change, people stay, people leave – nothing is the same anymore. How I wish to go back to the younger days when almost everyone is there, and the atmosphere was loud. Now, it has become a tad vapid. Even so, we try to liven up the atmosphere here and there, so it won’t be too colourless. Continue reading June

Pie in the Sky & Ramadhan

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I’ve turned to dreams to realize the reality that I could possibly never have. Every night, I would come up with scenarios of my wish, hoping to transform them into dreams. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t. When it does work, the feeling is too real that it would trigger all my senses and I would be left staring into space – trying to absorb all there is. Continue reading Pie in the Sky & Ramadhan


pic from Google


I’m at that phase where I start to isolate myself…again. To be honest, I started to distance myself from people years ago but now, it is to the point where I would find excuses to cancel plans – even with my close friends. I’m not sure if they would actually notice because I was never truly the active one in the first place. So, I’m guessing whether I’m active or passive, it wouldn’t make a difference. Continue reading Desolation